Sometimes, life isn’t all rainbows and butterflies and sunshine.
Sometimes, it’s darker. Without bogging you down in too many gory details, I will say this: my family has a genetic disposition towards anxiety. My mom has it, I certainly have it, and my little brother has just started having more issues with it (he’s 13… fun age, right?).
He also really doesn’t like his school very much and has been struggling with that on some level. While we aren’t super-close, and don’t tend to talk about “feelings” (I mean, he’s a 13 year old boy, he’s not exactly talkative about such things), I very much feel his pain and want to help. But I’ve felt powerless and useless in helping him deal with this from so many miles away.
So I did what I always do. I baked him cookies. And sent him a package (which took two weeks to arrive, which was SUPER frustrating but whatever).
Now, I of course don’t advocate medicating emotional problems with food. That’s not at all what I was getting at with this package. What I was getting at (and what I said in a letter I wrote to him) was that I loved him, cared about him, and would always be there for him. And the time and care put into my cookies was one way to show that in a more tangible way. Sometimes I wish I had enough money to buy a ton of baking supplies and pay for postage to send cookies to all of you, just to show my appreciation and hopefully brighten your day just a little bit (because ultimately, my philosophy and goal is to make people just a teensy bit happier… or at least try lol).
And now, I share the recipe with you. It’s based off of the Vegan Cookie Invade Your Cookie Jar Chocolate Chip Cookie recipe that I keep referring to… But I added peanut butter! Brilliant, right? Peanut butter makes everything better!
Yet Another Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Cookie Recipe
Makes about 24-36; adapted from VCIYCJ
1/2 cup brown sugar
1/4 cup white sugar
2 tablespoons oil (optional; makes a prettier, smoother cookie but not strictly necessary in my opinion)
2/3 cup peanut butter
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1/4 cup nondairy milk, or water (may need more).
1 tablespoon egg replacer (or tapioca starch, or cornstarch)
1 1/2 cups flour
1/2 teaspoon baking soda
1/2 teaspoon salt
3/4 cup chocolate chips
Preheat oven to 350 degrees and lightly grease two cookie sheets. In a large bowl, mix together oil, peanut butter, and sugars until it gets nice and caramelly (may take a few minutes, but can easily be done with a fork!). Add in vanilla, egg replacer and water and mix well. Mix in flour, salt, and baking soda. The dough will be pretty thick, but if you really can’t get it to stay together add 1-2 more tablespoons of liquid. Fold in chocolate chips.
Place tablespoon-sized balls on cookie sheet and flatten slightly; bake for about 9 minutes or until edges are ever so slightly golden. Let cool on cookie sheet for a couple minutes then transfer to plate/cooling rack.
Share with someone you love :)
How do you show people that you care?
Sorry if this post was too boring/emotional/personal… I’ve been feeling a little down myself so my creative juices aren’t exactly at their prime.